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10 月 31 日
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To Gain From Depression 失落也是获得Optimistic to the World 用最好的心情面对最坏的事情 12月15日 After "Wo Ju" Part I Finally, I went through "Wo Ju", the best well-known and most heated-discussed TV serial in China. First of all, it was a pain, a suffering, not because of the plots or ideas in the program. Instead, it was watching the serial itself. For years, I have been away from TV serials, whatever from the western or the eastern. They are so long, so tedious, so slow in progress, that I just run out of patience. Worse still, you can guess more than 80% of its story. Drama, what else could it be? Unbelievably, I did it, on "Wo Ju". As Jintao said, whenever I wasted some time on anything unnecessary, I would feel nervous and guilty. Yep, that is my feeling now. But how did I start it? It was on all over the internet, western medias, and friends' words. Out of curiosity, I had to find out, didn't I? Alright, why is "Wo Ju" such a hit? It is a mess of hot topics in China, unaffordable housing prices, problem of employment, loyalty to marriage, government corruption. These issues are so commonly known that people take them for granted, not bothering to talk about them. However, when they are all put together, it just triggers a burst of comments from the audience, complaints, criticisms and acquiescence. Song: Undoubtedly, he is the most controversial figure in the story. As the secretary for a mayor, Song has got more than everything he wants, power in the government, money from nowhere, an "everyman-wanted" range rover, a warm family and an unnecessary girl. He is handsome (maybe), mature, wealthy, resolute, and smart, so smart that he plots every single moment of his life, his work, meeting with Haizao, talks with his wife, and probably even his deadly car accident. It explains that so many girls, ladies and grannies are crazy for him. One of my friends is right one of them. She said Song is faithful to Haizao, because of his 5 million and his death. I just couldn't agree on that. Since he has got a considerate wife and a "lovely" daughter, he should take responsibility for them, and principle. She laughed, "principle?! You are talking principle now, these years?" That moment, for the first time, I felt left behind, so outdated. Anyway, I couldn't believe that Song would fall deep in love with a naive girl just because she looks like his school beauty, leaving no financial guarantee for his wife and daughter. They have no experience at all, except those on bed. And I couldn't believe Haizao would let go her precious memory with Xiaobei, in the expectation of an unrealistic love. But I have to accept it. 12月2日 Living alone is tough, isn't it? Just returned from tennis, exhausted and restless. Actually, I didn't feel so well this morning, a pain at my throat. A cold, or the damn charming potato chips? Who knows? But I am already running out of time, as always, so resting at home is undoubtedly impossible. But it is a good question why I would accept my friend's invitation to tennis. Poor persistence, and sports have become my only fun and expectation every week, really! While I was on my way to the office from the tennis court, coldness tiredness and hunger were all rushing into my minds. I was just retrieving my memory in childhood. Whenever I got home from anywhere, Mom would have delicious dinner prepared, collect all my smelly and dirty clothes. Grabbing the food into my mouth and lying on bed were the only practice that takes energy. Now, I know for sure that, on arriving at home, I have to make the dinner, clean the dishes, wash those clothes, take care my painful throat, and tons of experiments await tomorrow. The problem is I am feeling too sore and tired to raise my arm. For the first time I am afraid of getting home. My goodness! Keep going, man! Going home... Night of Dec 1st 10月30日 杂念二上次说到自己，不得不把自己狠狠批斗一番。人都说当局者迷，可是我却把自己的虚荣心都看得那么清楚，估计是到了不可救要，覆水难收的地步！ 之前参加某活动，跟某领导“亲切”握手，还有几个记者拍照，过后上网搜了两天，还是没找到，对此还念念不忘，虚荣！最近接到个nobody-known报社的电话，说要问一下对在加拿大的中国留学生的看法，想想也没有什么，随便说了几句，哪知最后说要总结一下，作为学生意见上报，还要照片。先是一愣，然后窃喜，最后问了问什么法律责任的问题（在北美还是注意点好）。第二天还真的登了，当时又乐起来了，马上跟朋友炫耀一番，虚荣！他说买一份寄回家去，让爸妈也高兴一回。幸好及时醒悟了，不敢再跟其他朋友谈这事，决定去买一份回来，不为纪念，只为警示。认真想一想，还真没有任何值得自豪的地方，其实自己什么都没做，相当于记者抓到个路人访问一番，上了电视。如果骄傲也是虚荣一种的话，那更是没话说了。从小到大，成绩越大，接踵而来的失败就越惨痛。小学刚进奥数班，一股劲乐得不知天高地厚，然后第一次考试拿了人生第一个不及格。高中物理竞赛，初赛完后觉得自己不可一世，紧接着的就是复赛的惨败。高三有次模拟不小心跳到班里前五，于是高考平庸之至。大学的学生会竞选前是如此地胸有成竹，以至于输得不明不白。太多太多次，现在已经开始敏感，当成绩到来的时候，我已经听到失败的声音，就会全身紧张，calm down calm down……但愿这是好事罢！ 姐说我是老好人，缺乏强人应有的风范；朋友说我应该为自己多考虑一点。实际情况是，自己实在不知道怎么say NO。大学时曾把一个好朋友turn down了，一下子他变得极度压抑，看不下那一幕，于是又改变主意答应他，但他却留下一句“不用了”就走了。自己为此自责了好久，实在受不了这份罪，于是变得来者不拒。俗话说，好人有好报。我倒不强求有好报，但确实过得不错，也就认了，继续做我的好人，还是挺开心的，really！ 10月29日 杂念一原来给这篇起名人生如戏，尔后觉得不太合适，也没多少人生的内容，随笔又太随便，念头一转，杂念罢！ 09年，虽然世界还深陷经济危机中，中国却率先走出泥潭。上证指数重上3000点，还有一场浩浩荡荡的60周年国庆阅兵式把世界震得不行，众多海外学子华侨激动万分，看看那汹涌澎湃的回国潮流就可见一斑。值得高兴的还有同学们喜讯连连，XY和YF，S姐妹，ZB，C和M同学，曾经被我们一致认为没可能的，也陶醉在幸福当中。前天才有个同学说她真应该做红娘，一连撮合两对，结果是自己逛街都没人陪了。我一乐，便随口八卦问他们怎么样？哪知道她反咬一口，说当初介绍给我又说NO，当时就傻眼了，怎么跟我扯上关系了。曾经有段时间，确实挺羡慕，或忌妒，那如胶如漆的一对对，然后跟自己说，等他们吵架的时候就有头大的。现在看来，这不过是酸葡萄罢。但截然相反的，是心态，不再羡慕，不再忌妒，真的希望他们这样一辈子乐下去。能看到有情人天长地久，也是一种快乐。 觉得人生如戏挺有味，世界就是个大舞台，每个人都在扮演着他自己的角色。奥斯卡获奖电影《撞车》，第一次没看懂，混乱一片（因为是分开两次看的），第二次重温的时候，才惊叹剧情之妙。每个主角都是如此平常，不是总统，不是Jack Bower，没有超能力，没有哆啦A梦，却完全不碍它获得奥斯卡。唯一不同的，你是演员，同时你是导演。这是一出喜剧，闹剧，悲剧还是催眠剧，就看你的了，你是主角，你是导演，你说了算！最近热议的浙大跳楼事件，各方观点不一，骂学校的居多，讨涂老师的也不少，大家过了一场口水瘾。纵使学校千错万错，涂老师这么一跳，负担责任委屈全清了，却压在自己家人身上。不管涂老师如何优秀，如何命途多舛，我最鄙视的，还是这样一走了之的人。 估计说这样的话，要受批评了。自己前段时间才写了些极度消极的语言，何况我的小风雨哪儿比得上涂老师的火星撞地球。谢谢各位了！只是大家看看我SPACE的标题，就知道我不是能被火星撞倒的人，我能这么写出来，当然就是没事了。畅怀欲言的人，只怕嘴巴太尖得罪人，短见是不太可能的。 8月10日 GRE作文模版跟HK在讨论个很严肃的话题：GRE作文模版！ HK让我放弃模版，按图索骥，找到都有影子，我说好难放弃。然后他自诩自己是个好模版，我噗嗤一笑，为了表达我对他的鄙视，我笑他是3分模版。 “不管分高分低，模版就系模版” “没错，3分模版就系3分模版 4分都达唔到，点可能5分6分” 他说我有6分模版，这是自讨苦吃，重考多少次都不一定再拿到6分。 “我明 都没错 不过唔拿都拿左了 甘你想点 又唔可以删左个成绩” “甘你要试下修改评分标准 换个角度，说不定有7分” “你将个分数乘2 3.5就有7分 甘都系自欺欺人遮” 他也无语了，说“不过，你记住，旧拓就系旧拓，新托就系新托。前一个6分永远不是下一个6分” 嗯，没错啊！ |
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